It's time

for doing such things and taking such steps. when if not now?
i'll propably wait until summer t o finish the year. it's difficult to wait but i have to do it in order to calm my mom and to access my own intention. mom offered to pay for my master's course. i know she wants to make it easier for me but in fact she is doing even worse. i won't take the money. and even if i take them it won't solve the problem because the problem is in my mind, it's inside me and i'm the only person who can crack it. i only need some time and freedom of action.