No chocolate in the world

will ever save you from loneliness. No money in the world will ever buy you a right person.

After great pressure of my love ones suffering (mother`s hear attack and granny`s disability to walk, besides, she is in great pain) I managed to get a week for myself and to go to Cyprus.


Got back being quite enthusiastic to find a good job and had some ideas to put into practice.
Suddenly without any particular reason came the feeling of loneliness - so overwhelming that I am writing about it here now.
I love Russian language being a born Russian but that is NOT language for confession to me.
Probably when I express myself in English I feel less stupid talking in front of beg your pardon complete strangers who probably do not care a jot about me and less vulnerable though too.
Tired. Empty. Lonely.
And do not know how to gather myself into a pile of activity.